I am taking a vacation for the sake of Allah. I took 1 week off work, and for the next days I will be performing itikaf at the masjid. This means I will be sleeping there and eating there, and inshaAllah waking up to pray qiyam ul-layl.

The feelings that go through my mind as I prepare for this. Shaytan attacks those that want to do good deeds. You start to get doubts, to wonder, why am I doing this? Can’t I do something better with my 1 week vacation, such as go for a trip with my wife, or stay home and look for a new job, or improve my technical skills, etc, etc..

Also I have concerns, will my wife be okay with the kids, doing the shopping, take care of the house, and so on… ?

Infact, the feelings that go through my heart is that this is a small glimpse of what the companions felt when they had to go for jihad. And it was even more scary, because they didn’t know what food they would eat, they didn’t even know if they would come home, or when.

And it was fardh for them to go out. The deen‘s very survival necessitated such a struggle.

Quran 9:38

O you who believe! What is the matter with you, that when you are asked to march forth in the Cause of Allah (i.e. Jihad) you cling heavily to the earth? Are you pleased with the life of this world rather than the Hereafter? But little is the enjoyment of the life of this world as compared with the Hereafter. (Interpretation by Muhsin Khan)

(Quran 9:38)

A mighty test indeed. May Allah make us of those who remember the struggle of the companions and the Prophet, their sacrifice, and help us to return to the sunnah (way of the Prophet, SAllahu alaiyhi wa salam which was prescribed by Allah) and the correct understanding of the deen, ameen. May Allah make us of those who willingly give our lives and our properties in return for jannah, ameen.